As I sit here writing to you, I feel my heart clenched and nervous to reveal to you that I just did it again. What did I do you might ask. I did that thing I told myself I wouldn’t. That thing that constantly makes me doubt and question if I’m worthy, am I ready, am I good enough to be in front of the camera, have my own business…blah blah blah.
As the mountain of fear and jealousy consume my body like an avalanche ready to consume my very BEING, I log off. I set my phone aside as if discovered to be guilty of a crime I didn’t commit.
The feelings are heavy and I feel yucky inside because before this very moment of casually coming across this beautiful woman’s page, I was happy and I stole it from myself. So why did I do this again. Am I able to view another woman in my field as successful and not feel I’m steps behind and lacking in what I am called to do.
Can I be happy just BEING ME!
As I write to you, I feel a sense of relief because I know there are so many of us during this trying time feeling the same. Doubt, fear, rejection, and insecurity seeping.
I am reminded of this beautiful post I read a year back. It mentioned that as consumers when we go to the store, there is a plethora of bread options and not one of the brands are concerned if they will be bought. They have the understanding and knowing that the right consumer will purchase their bread.
Sounds easier said then done, but it brings me peace and I am reminded that I am more than enough, that I am worthy, beautiful, and have a message to share. Writing this blog is not only for the fashion looks that I can share with you, but also to take a deeper look at the beauty within that we all carry.
To turn this moment into a positive, I am posting a few of the fashion styles that exude this beautiful woman’s effortless style.
Have a wonderful day, Beautiful!
Comment below. I’d love to hear your thoughts and have you dealt with the same feelings of doubt and insecurity when it came to another person in your field.